on grief.

It's been 3 days and yet it's still hard not to think about it. I remember vividly the call that Leon made to me on Sunday night; and suddenly I too had to take up the unpleasurable position to spread the bad news. It's not a good feeling, not when one of your better friends suddenly left the world, not when the cause of passing is self-induced.

I perhaps will never, and ever, know why would he do such a thing. Everybody can say about deaths like it's an easy thing, but when you're there looking at your expressionless friend; then recall the days when he was smiling and laughing, its an extremely harrowing and humbling experience. What's worst was that you never imagined he would just do it; or even think of doing it, and the failure of myself for not being there when he needed it most. It's a painful thought but it's a lesson learnt.

Time cannot undo certain things. I pray for the grieving hearts of the family and friends, and hope that others will not make the same rash decision as he would. Farewell my friend. Your smile will always be in our memories.

Lost the war.

Satan's won the war,
We have lost the battle we meant to fight.
Society's going the downward spiral,
Abortions and suicides are on the rise.

Where are the values we learnt in school
Who is the morally upright man?
He is but scorned and made fun of today.

Selfishness is the driving force of our lives
Self satisfaction, at the expense of others, is all that matters.
Wrong has been made right in our eyes
And sin, what's that?

What's unacceptable years ago;
Today's as common as can be.
Is this truly a free society;
Does freedom have to result in this?
With the lack of social graces and of decent morality?
We have already lost what's won,
Unless we choose to stand.

Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace; How sweet the sound!
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost; but now am found
Was blind but now I see.

T'was grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed!

Grace. The sweetest thing on earth. And what would I do without grace? Nothing but a life of hopelessness and despair, of little fruition or satisfaction. I never can understand life without grace; without forgiveness and hope. There's always a lack of something without the amazing grace. It is beyond human explanation, I simply cannot tell you how much it means to me. It is just as such. May you experience it too. :)