end of 2010.

2010 was indeed quite a year for me. The year of Ups and Downs. Made decisions, some good, some hasty, some outright dumb. but altogether came together for the good of my character. Had my fair share of laughter and fun; but the sadness and brokeness during the darkest times were there as well. And I thank God for being faithful even when I failed him so many times.
I had many opportunities this year. God brought in many new people in my life that impacted me in many ways. Been to MIP and mission trip where God first dealt with my character, and on thru to the start of school when it was a further breaking down of my reliance on what I could do; both for God and for myself. I went from a mountain top experience, to the deepest valley i ever imagined I'd ever been to. My trust, my entire belief in God was called into question. Could I still say I will trust in Him? The apparent lack of fruit in many areas of my life seemed to weigh my entire self down. So I fought, I ran, I tried. But it didn't happen. But it was exactly this that God wanted me to go thru, the breaking point which I say that I really want to give it all up; that God begins his work in my life and character.
My trust in what I can do begun to fade, my heart for people around me grew as I learnt that it is never ever about what I do or what I built. But it's about the Cross and the grace of Christ. The varsity camp was refreshing as it brought me back to the promises God gave to me; both as a younger Christian until today. I had to deal with my past disappointments, hurts that were unresolved. And how God brought Shaun Foo in to the retreat amazed me, like how I will always happen to bump into him in Hall 4, and how John Huang was contemplating about the weirdness about bringing an already Christian into the retreat. I never thought I would be able to bless and walk thru with somebody the exact same path I had to go thru at the beginning of the year, but I did. And it's God's way of saying He's still in control! And what a timely reminder for the close of 2010.
2011 will be exciting. Because it's a new man facing the new year. :)